OK so I didn’t write my blog last week and that was probably partly due to the fact that I was really busy and also partly because I didn’t shed any pounds!  However I didn’t put on either so I can’t complain.

This week though….drum roll please……2.5 punds off which means I’ve hit the 2.5 stone mark!!!! Yeah baby!  I’m too sexy for my shirt, too sexy for……oh sorry I am getting carried away!

This just feels so strange.  After all the tough weeks, the stress over hitting the 2 stone mark, I never thought I’d get here!  I am feeling great, looking great and there is definitely no way I am going back!

Last night I found an old slimming world book from 10 years ago.  Then, I was losing weight for my wedding and I was actually lighter when I started than when I started this time and now I am actually lighter than when I stopped last time.  That is just so cool.  I really must dig out my wedding dress and try it on.  I bet it will just hang off me now!

of course the up and downside of losing lots of weight is the constant need to replace clothes!  I’ve done really well so far as my sister has also been looking after herself and shedding the pounds so she has handed over loads of stuff that no longer fit her.  Now though she is nearing her target weight so the clothes will no longer be coming my way!

I also returned to work last week after having 18 months at home!  That was tough on the clothing front too!  All my business suits looked ridiculous so I’ve had to have a shopping trip to get some new stuff in!

Have a brilliant week.

x

So after all my good intentions last week, all my psycho analysis blah blah blah…..what have I done?

Well the week wasn’t completely bad, as half a pound off is still half a pound off.  It really should have been more though.

I am definitely trying to sabatage myself and the really horrid thing is that I know I am doing it.   How can I sit here and tell the world and his wife about my lifes events, tell you how I am not going to let it beat me and then try and ruin everything?

Was I thinking that just because I am now aware of my mental blocks and the causes behind them that it would be that simple? Just move on and have the body and mental state that I truly deserve?

Wish it was that easy!  Perhaps I have still a lot of work to do, starting by forgiving myself for beating myself up all the time and then maybe forgiving others and remembering that history will not repeat itself if I don’t allow it to.

Here’s to a better week and my 2 stone goal!