I must say that I am pretty pleased.  I lost 2.5 pounds this week which is great as I hadn’t felt that I had been focusing enough.  Having said that maybe now after 20 weeks my new eating habits are really really becoming habits and so even when I am not constantly thinking about my diet I am now naturally making better choices about what to put in my mouth!

I also had a a couple of different things happen this week which I feel really good about!

The first was when I got a phone call from a friend saying that they have been reading my blog and now feel inspired to change themselves and shed those pounds that are making them sad!  I was bowled over to say the least!  I started writing this blog more as a way to keep me on track….a public declaration each week which can only motivate me to stick with it when things get tough.  So for someone to tell me that I have inspired them has really touched my heart and given me another reason to carry on.  Thank you Anita and I look forward to your success too!

The other thing that happened was that I finally took a close up picture of me from my webcam and updated my Facebook picture.  I got a message from someone I worked with years ago telling me how great I looked and then a couple of other people said the same too!  Check out my picture on the About page!

So if you’re wondering whether it’s worth the time and effort to shed those pounds I can tell you for sure that it MOST DEFINITELY IS!

Here’s to looking and feeling great!

x

OK so this will be brief as I forgot to write this straight after my weigh in which I know is very very naughty.  My apologies.  It’s not that I don’t care about you or anything, it’s just I’ve had other stuff on and I kinda overlooked this!

Just half a pound off this week.  Thought I’d been good but obviously not as good as I should be if I want to lose the weight.

So for next week I will do better.  Having said that, as next weeks weigh in is tomorrow I perhaps should have addressed my eating habits a little earlier….like last week.  Anyway what will be will be and if it’s not the result I want then I certainly know what to do about it.

See you tomorrow!

Yep you guessed it!!  I hit my 2 stone milestone and exceeded it by 1.5 pounds!

So as promised here is a photo to give you an idea:

So after all my stressing about getting past that mental 2 stone barrier I finally did it.  It wasn’t easy however.  I found myself desperately trying to put things in my mouth that  Ishouldn’t presumably in an attempt to sabotage myself.

Each time I caught myself, I literally had to give myself a good talking to, telling myself that history can’t repeat itself if I don’t allow it to, re-affirming why I want to lose weight,  re-affirming why I need to lose weight  and then if that wasn’t doing the trick I went for a walk to take myself away from the fridge!

I am so glad that I did.  I now feel relieved to have gotten past that barrier and continuing no longer seems to be the struggle it was last week.  I am sure there will be more tough times to come but for now I am winning the battle!

Hope you all had a good week.  Please feel free to leave any comments you’d like to make.

x

So after all my good intentions last week, all my psycho analysis blah blah blah…..what have I done?

Well the week wasn’t completely bad, as half a pound off is still half a pound off.  It really should have been more though.

I am definitely trying to sabatage myself and the really horrid thing is that I know I am doing it.   How can I sit here and tell the world and his wife about my lifes events, tell you how I am not going to let it beat me and then try and ruin everything?

Was I thinking that just because I am now aware of my mental blocks and the causes behind them that it would be that simple? Just move on and have the body and mental state that I truly deserve?

Wish it was that easy!  Perhaps I have still a lot of work to do, starting by forgiving myself for beating myself up all the time and then maybe forgiving others and remembering that history will not repeat itself if I don’t allow it to.

Here’s to a better week and my 2 stone goal!